Finally, a week has pass........for this week other than going to out to sch for exam and lesson, it would be Calvin's & Karen's wedding which is tml.....and after that is going to be stay home week for me as i have to prepare for Mid-year.........The conflict has finally been settle, sometime kept on wondering why muz we go to that stage before some ppl will learn? From talking till serious finally to the stage of placing fear in them, why is it only till the stage where fear need to be placed in them before they learn? Last fri that guy was so scared that when we were having meeting to settle that conflicts once and for all, he had to call a teacher down juz in case we were to hit him, well but all settle through talking, even as we were talking, memories of how much fun time we had before and till it get to this stage, why muz it happen? Even while talking i almost teared, even before i juz feel like not going anymore, not becoz of not wanting to hit him but becoz of the time we went out play, had dinner and stuff all feeling juz return for that moment...........

Well now to the main point of blogging CHURCH!!!
Sat was extremely fun, Ice-breaking was done by Munchong and assisted by me as MC was doing it for the first time, seeing the cell having so much fun really make me smile :) at first we intended to play poison ball, but the piece of space was taken my Mic Kon cell grp, and so we went to the back of cafe and play, there was not enough space to play poison ball, luckily Cheryl suggested we play Captain Ball, in fact playing Captain ball was not in my list due to some height difference, but then seeing they having so much fun and laughter made me feel that after all it was not in vain, thanx to Cheryl for that game......did not went up for pre-svr prayer as i was sitting downstair along with Brendan, Yee Hwui, Wei Xiong and Wei Zhi, went up for PnW which was so good!!!..............Sermon was really great can, though i miss the first week, but i think last sat the sermon was the best among the three........it made me learn lots of things........then got one part is asking whether if we are enthu bout Jesus returning, then for me though i said i wanted Him to come back so as to end all things quickly, but then in another side i fear for his returning as i may not be living the way He desire, then during Altar Call, God juz told me to stand up, well stood up and prayed along with Pastor Daniel, then like it gave me a refresh of God, suddenly a refreshing feeling juz came upon me.........well gonna have to stop here even though its short, gonna study for my Mid-Year liao

Finally, its been a week since i step down from the duties of NCC.......been thinking back and wonder did i took the wrong path of being a Senior Specialist? Recently even after we step down, there we are having some conflict and i am tearing off, this conflict has been on for a year but me and my friends choose to stay quiet....even though my friends do not wish to do anything but me? I have choose to put my sinner-self to "sleep" for that year towards this matter, i chose not to do anything but this time round my limit has really tear off, i do not know what will happen the next moment. For this you all may not know but i think its better to tell u all, in fact i almost hitted him during our annual camp but my friend told me to calm down, but this time i am now on the verge of calling my friends down already.....but i am still hanging on to what God said and assured me is that "Hang on, i will deliver you from the hands of the evil one", but how long can i still keep my other side asleep? I am really lost now, i do not know what to do.....but i noe is that once i lay my fist on him, the other specialist would be doing the same with me, but i choose not to do it now....some friends in school are asking me not to fight, but do i wish to do it? We had been friends for 4 years and suffering together through tough training, if i were to hit him, friendship would be broken and many things would change......i am really helpless now, how long can i last not with only hanging on to the words of "I will deliver you from the evil one, i will never leave you, i will never forsake you"......i am really scared i cant hold on much longer, guys when u all pray daily, can u all pray that God will deliver me from this matter fast and i would have self control? I do not wish to walk back the path i used to, this year is "o" lvl, with any police case i may not be taking "o"s




GGGGGGGGGGGGGGGGGGGGGGGCHURCH
Sat was fun man, though i miss last week svr, went for PnW and it felt slightly weird, dunno why but got this like going to the chapel for the first time that feeling, but anws we were all going HIGH for God!!!! PnW was great, was jumping jumping till like when we are singing the last praise song before going back to our seat, during the second time we could jump, i was suddenly thrown into a daze, i was juz stanind there clapping but did not know what i was doind till Nick nudge me softly before i got back to attention of what i am doing.......sermon was like good, dunno why for last week sermon, some part feels like a repeat to me, all seems as if some part i had heard it befor ebut could not get memories of it, even the video, saw it before but dunno where.......the same goes for Donric bout the video........Pastor Daniel talk bout some things which seems funny for a sermon like lesbian thingy and when he describe out what they did i was like huh? and was like stun, haha weird rite? Well even though, i learnt alot of things.......for Cell, finally back to discipleship, dunno why but became Munchong discipler.....well haiz the guys side of discipleship planning is little weird one la, but we still could get past it by God grace........well this week post may be short regarding to church as i has to go study now.......

This are the verse holding me now but for how long?

Change "our" to "my", "we" to "I" for Psalms 46:1-2
God is my refuge and strength, an ever-present help in trouble.Therefore I will not fear, though the earth give way and the mountains fall into the heart of the sea. -- Psalm 46:1-2

"The Lord said to my Lord: Sit at my right hand until i make your enemies a footstool for your feet."---Psalm 110:1

"Never will i leave you, Never will i forsake you"---Hebrews 13:5b

A CALL TO WAKE UP

"A Call To Wake Up" thats what i would use to sum up this week sermon, even though did not attend svr due to speach day, but i bought the DVD from Mu-en and manage to find time to see it only today as i was having a fever ytd due to the reason that i had already caught a cold and was totally drenched on sat......although being sick is not really a good feeling, but running in the rain was really fun, been some times since i got myself totally drench, its was so fun la, we were runnning and the rain was like splattering unto your face then could not see the road in front, all seems blur and i thought i was going to faint due to the tiredness....but then decided to close my eyes and juz run, anything that happen let it be, to my delight, i was OK.....it was juz rain water flowing down my face causing my sight to turn blur and after rubbing off it was clear again.....hhhmmm, perhaps mankind should invent some "mini windscrean wiper" like that of a car to clean off rain water huh....well back to sermon, saw the sermon and i believe we are living in the last day, like whatever PS. Daniel said, i tot of it once before.....with all the nuclear stuff going on, all it need was juz to let it out and we would say bye bye.......like in the bible, kingdom will rise against kingdom, nation will rise against nation, is it not begginning to happen now? Give it a thought right now, is not the US gonna wage war against North Korea if they were to not disarm all nuclear project? What will happen if it really happen? I really believe we are the last generation living, have seen many things bout the last day in the bible from the time i did QT till now, saw it like more than the numbers of fingers i had......through this sermon God like told me to WAKE UP, many are still ignorant of a God that has send His one and only son Jesus Christ who had died juz for them b'coz of one powerful word that is LOVE........like for my QT ytd LUKE 13, there is this part saying that the Kingdom of God is like a mustard seed sown by a man and it will slowly grow to be a big tree and bird would make nest on it.......to me this verse is like "In this world the Kingdom of God is small, not many ppl knew of it, so we should juz go and share with them" like during sermon there this part saying that when the new world come, those whom we know are not Christian, we would never see them again!!! FOREVER!!! ETERNITY!!!

This is a wake up call for me, what about you?
Father, i juz pray for all brothers and sisters that they would go all out juz to let your kingdom be known, this is a wake up call for me pray that it would be the same for them, i pray that they would even GO and finish your commission that you left for us, i pray that even during this yr, your Kingdom would expand like never before, let this year be a meaningful year for YI, let YI work with you to expand Your Kingdom, but even so let us not be complecent but humble in your eyes, pray that all members would grow strong in you and seek you in everything, in time of trouble, in times of worries and even in time of saddness, they will not despair for they have a God like you, a God of miracles, a God that nothing else can be replace for there is no God like mine. AMEN

Pryomania & Mike Guglielmucci

Finally after two weeks from 24 March, went back to church after events of happening. Kept my promise that i said to my small grp(Ali, Yining, Gab) and my small grp/cell leader(Cheryl), well for ytd, juz like Cheryl said that the feeling of not going will still be back this week and true enough, was sitting with Brendan and James Lim, then was looking out at the main gate direction and slowly was like thinking go walking and slack ard lei, but well did not go with the thought, but the thought came with me to be burn by the PRYOMANIA, ytd had not Chem tuition as it was physics and i did not take it so went to church after lunch, its better then going hme for i noe if i go hme, wooo it would be bad, so decided to better go church earlier and yeah, since i was in God hse, i was even more powered to resist the thought and stayed on.....well to be truthful, i was very glad that i stay on, for even though God had things to speak to me last week and i was not present, God spoke in a very special way, rarely the whole sermon would speak to a person, but God spoke to me through Pastor Paul Geerling, the sermon ytd was juz like purely made for me, the whole sermon is like speaking to me from start to end, it was juz simply so powerful, juz simply could not be express to you in words........oh yeah Youth Alive Queensland came for ytd, and PnW was like simply Best, everyone was like going HIGH HIGH HIGH for God, ytd the band was simply awesome, they all played professionally, juz like professionals, but they are not, coz they can be how pro they are, but without the annointing of God, no way will they be able to do it, God deserve the honour right. Well for sermon, it spoke of like how the PRYOMANIA (Holy Spirit) wants to do and would do, it also taught me of how/what the devil would do to juz extinguish that fire in you for God..........Well during the ending of svr, heard of news of Mike Guglielmucci, someone who had serve God faithfully and even will stand in times of sickness, has been dignoise with a life-threatening disease and has few more months to live, even so he did not wallow in sorrow, but instead, he wrote a song to praise God, it was very nice and one part has this verse that goes "O Praise You, Jesus Jesus" it had a rythm of the ole ole ole, song the type they sing at soccer match, and another is with this part saying "even when i am in my lowest valley, still i will praise you" and I believe God would heal him with many ppl praying for him(Shown on internet), even he himself trust in God to heal him, well i believe every minute and second, God is looking at him and smiling, He is saying "thats my child, and i am proud of him, this glory shall be mine, for he has serve me faithfully and he also trust in me to heal him, and I shall".........our God has done all kind of miracles, from healing fever/flu to the lame walking, the blind seeing to the raising of the dead, what more shall he not do to juz heal a mere sickness which seems nothing to Him? Through Mike, i believe God glory shall be seen through it and the world would see and ask, why could he be healed of a life-threathening disease? People shall then do the commission that God commanded that is to make disciple and people shall be saved! Mike Guglielmucci story has touch mine heart, did his touch yours? His faith makes me feel that i am not even up to him, when i am sick will i still write songs of praise and praise God?

Believe that God will heal Mike and claim the glory he deserve

Catering broke record for the first time, we had 16 ppl eating with us and for the first time, we need to request extra tables when there are even shortage of it, and luckily God bless us with Jie Ming who accede to our request, felt so bless with such friends in YI, hope it will last and i will be with you all till the end of time....Catering was fun, we took photo of different tables as we were seperated and we were like playing ard, hope this blessing will always be with us where we always have much fun together...........

NISSI CHERYL I LOVE/<3>

For the past week, began to learn many things and slowly getting used to it.........For the past week, began to stay quiet already, anything happen i also dun care, juz stay quiet and juz dun interfere too much, dunno why but it juz seems that way.........Another is that now slowly even as i hear that my Grandma pancrease is failing again, slowly i began to juz accept the fact already and even prepare my heart for anything that happens, well thats life, twist and turn juz come in that split second, how i wish the new world would come soon, where there is no sickness and there always peace, even now gradually my heart dies off with emotion, dun feel much about anything now, juz like the old time where my heart is dead before accepting Christ. Sometime I would wonder why this time, satan is working in so many family of my friend. Arguement, fought, juz so chaotic, why could not satan juz leave them alone? The most "best" things is that those friend are all Christian....is this period a test for many?