Finally, its been a week since i step down from the duties of NCC.......been thinking back and wonder did i took the wrong path of being a Senior Specialist? Recently even after we step down, there we are having some conflict and i am tearing off, this conflict has been on for a year but me and my friends choose to stay quiet....even though my friends do not wish to do anything but me? I have choose to put my sinner-self to "sleep" for that year towards this matter, i chose not to do anything but this time round my limit has really tear off, i do not know what will happen the next moment. For this you all may not know but i think its better to tell u all, in fact i almost hitted him during our annual camp but my friend told me to calm down, but this time i am now on the verge of calling my friends down already.....but i am still hanging on to what God said and assured me is that "Hang on, i will deliver you from the hands of the evil one", but how long can i still keep my other side asleep? I am really lost now, i do not know what to do.....but i noe is that once i lay my fist on him, the other specialist would be doing the same with me, but i choose not to do it now....some friends in school are asking me not to fight, but do i wish to do it? We had been friends for 4 years and suffering together through tough training, if i were to hit him, friendship would be broken and many things would change......i am really helpless now, how long can i last not with only hanging on to the words of "I will deliver you from the evil one, i will never leave you, i will never forsake you"......i am really scared i cant hold on much longer, guys when u all pray daily, can u all pray that God will deliver me from this matter fast and i would have self control? I do not wish to walk back the path i used to, this year is "o" lvl, with any police case i may not be taking "o"s




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Sat was fun man, though i miss last week svr, went for PnW and it felt slightly weird, dunno why but got this like going to the chapel for the first time that feeling, but anws we were all going HIGH for God!!!! PnW was great, was jumping jumping till like when we are singing the last praise song before going back to our seat, during the second time we could jump, i was suddenly thrown into a daze, i was juz stanind there clapping but did not know what i was doind till Nick nudge me softly before i got back to attention of what i am doing.......sermon was like good, dunno why for last week sermon, some part feels like a repeat to me, all seems as if some part i had heard it befor ebut could not get memories of it, even the video, saw it before but dunno where.......the same goes for Donric bout the video........Pastor Daniel talk bout some things which seems funny for a sermon like lesbian thingy and when he describe out what they did i was like huh? and was like stun, haha weird rite? Well even though, i learnt alot of things.......for Cell, finally back to discipleship, dunno why but became Munchong discipler.....well haiz the guys side of discipleship planning is little weird one la, but we still could get past it by God grace........well this week post may be short regarding to church as i has to go study now.......

This are the verse holding me now but for how long?

Change "our" to "my", "we" to "I" for Psalms 46:1-2
God is my refuge and strength, an ever-present help in trouble.Therefore I will not fear, though the earth give way and the mountains fall into the heart of the sea. -- Psalm 46:1-2

"The Lord said to my Lord: Sit at my right hand until i make your enemies a footstool for your feet."---Psalm 110:1

"Never will i leave you, Never will i forsake you"---Hebrews 13:5b