Today was so awesome....dunno y i felt so happy the whole day even during praise n worship that is before svr I am like Zhi High during the svr.....then today Pastor Daniel preach about worries hijacking our lives then this week is better at least those long sermon note were put up on screen then could catch all of it unlike sometime brain lagging then could not catch much of it then today Cheryl was like Zhi High also over Jonathon Leong(Is it correct?) aiya anyway couldn't be bother then she was like talking about Jonathon all the way today even during dinner time , she was like Jonathon is so cool n blah blah blah along with Rebekah then got one part Cheryl was talking about Jonathon is so cool , charming then Rebekah added in sexy with a lustful look with her eyes then we were like laughing away by the look she gave.....today dinner was so fun with laughter all the way n then got this cold joke from Alicia about someone stealing the heart then they all wanting to be cooperative laugh along then me , Brendan , Munchong was like having "///" on our face....had holy communion today then dunno y i juz felt like crying out when we sang "I Will Run To You"(anybody got this song can send me) but then not only that i found out that whenever we sang a worship song my heart will wrench n juz feel like crying out dunno y lei and juz before ending got the last song n we sang majesty then got this guy in front i juz feel like z-eng him one fist cos he kept on moving back then wanted to z-eng his back n tell him to move front but did not i control myself like wat it says 好人就忍 ，坏人 z-eng 一拳 then after catering went to westmall to buy a new notebook for sermon notes before going home actually intended to buy another one for Quiet Time but did not see another one that catch my attention so i bought one only then after reach home receive news that my grandma had enter the hospital again due to dehydration then i was like y didn't u all inform me y only i reach home then u inform me!!!! But neva mind at least got a more professional care to look after my grandma then my cell grp members can u all pray for my grandma once more n thank u all for doing so


Extra

For this whole week was a rather pack week for me as i had to do my design folio for D&T then almost reach hme ard 7+ then on tue had oral n i prayed to God before my turn while i was reading the passage then when it was picture discussion my mind was like totally blank after 3 points then juz at that time ideas kept flowing in n after that i was like wo God is so good sia then yesterday got the result of oral n was the highest in class then again i was like wow God is so great man then from this i see how our result would totally differ if we were to rely on God for help so lets rely on God for help
When in trouble-----Seek God
When in peace------Thank God
When in fear-------Pray to God
When feeling bored----Worship God with songs n sing it out
When have nothing to tok with friends-----Evangalise

Finally back from cafe duty in church....today or should i say yesterday i used the com till 3.00 am b4 going to slp till 5.30 as i wanted to go to the opposite 7-11 to buy maggi noodle but was too lazy then decided to cook packet noodle instead of cup then went to church at ard 7.30 , then today b4 starting the briefing had prayer led by brother Ken after that June split us into 3 grp which are Runner , Frontline & Kitchen then i was appointed to Runner along with Wei Liang , Nick , Caleb , n some other more we were like the most slack among the 3 grp as we need not prepare much as the crowd will not come till 10.30 then me n Nick were like running ard buying fishball , seaweed chicken to eat n we are the "regular customer" at Kenneth Zhang n Jun Ze stall then today was 101% great which consist of "Shiok" , "Fun" & "Tring" which has
75% Shiok-----Cos i could serve God n some others fellow brother n sister in christ with some auntie n uncle
15% Fun-----It was a whole new experience for me to serve in the cafe since coming to YI for the past 6 mth plus
1% Tiring-----Cos we need to clean table , keep plate n many more but i do not mind it for i m doing for God n not me nor the church nor others but God alone
then if got cafe duty again i comfirm wanna do it again n i wanna to be the runner or the 跑腿 for some who dun understand what it means to be a runner anyways juz one word to describe today "meaningful" for it was the first time i was not sleeping on my bed but instead serving God




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Today felt totally different from normal church svr i was like totally different and my heart is like something oppressing on me it all began after i bath then suddenly i dun feel like going to church today but nevertheless i went to church but after i repel the oppression , when i went to church , the oppression became stronger n when it was praise and worship my heart was like not there n i did not have the heart to worship God but as svr goes on the oppression became lesser n soon it was gone but God not only remove the oppression He even spoke to me thru today svr....there is this part of the sermon where it says "the more you struggle to be free , the tighter it grab onto you" and then it suddenly dawn on me that i was struggling to be free from my past like u noe that i could not let go of my past in last week blog , for the past one week , i was trying to free myself from the past instead of letting God do the job.....then in this week instead of being better , i became worse in my temper and the past is getting the best of me n even grabbing to me even more.....after cell stayed for catering for the first time then stay n help out in the kitchen after that for tomoro cafe duty...it was rather fun preparing the thing but when i m peeling the eggshells i was like ewwwww....the egg was not cook fully and it was like a little jelly but nvm finish the job nevertheless with Brendan , Rebekah and Gladys(dunno if this rite) then went out to have a breather for it was a little stuffy inside after that we kept the tables and chair back into the shed its was rather fun , me and Nick was like joking ard a little while keeping it...now i noe how much they had gone through carrying the chair everything back after catering everything though it was a little tiring , it was very fun n a whole new experience for me....b4 going back while waiting for my father sister Wanping sat down n talk to me then when she call out my name i was like eh....how she noe my name but nvm n she said that she knew my studies is not very good and told me that as a christian we should do our best for everything then she ask me to go church office every sat to study n revise at 11 with Cheryl then i say see first....i dunno if want to go a not lei...think first

A Whole New Experience

Today left class ard 12 for our live range shooting at HQ there then it was totally different from wat we shot for the past 2 yrs....today we shoot real live rounds n i mean real (the type that can kill) then at first i was a little nervous and as we had to wear our ear plug as we enter the range i could hear my heart beating and it was like *bump bump bump bump* rather fast then we went to shoot after a while of short briefing at first for the 3rd round of firing(we had 4 rounds) my rifle was like haywire n i had to kept on I.A I.A(Immediate Action) and the SAF officer had to kept on coming n help me settle my rifle problem then half way had two faulty cartridges as it had dented head then the SAF officer had to come again n i was like rather pai-seh lor cos the officer had to kept on helping me then at the last rounds of magazine i could not bother to wait then i juz fire off first and i ended first also cos i juz took aim n juz shoot already n could not be bother to wait but the good thing is no accident happen today n all that went for shooting had mostly 9 including me which got a 9 out of 10 then my friend got 4 n we were like sure a not but thats not the point the point is that i pray for God to allow all my friends to get the best result and i decided to give my best for God today n i got it where i only got ard juz pass result everytime n now i really see how the result will change if u give ur best for God argh dun blog liao la quite tired going to rest liao

Finally a short but long week has come to an end which means i will blog bout church again....recently i felt that I m still holding to my past and cannot let go totally of it like when Alister was in trouble on fri , i did not speak like a christian but not so bad to the extend of very bad but we spoke like how gangster would talk to his own "brothers" and then today the svr then i notice it bout i still cannot totally let go of my past....today svr God really spoke to me n God said not to hold on to our past juz let it go which i will do it now.

NOW BOUT CHURCH
Today did not noe it was a combine svr till i reach church....at first we played ice-breaker and after the game end i look at the time on my phone then saw it was 1425 and i was like eh?? How come haven go up then i ask Brendan and he told me bout it then i got to know , we went up at ard 1630 for svr and praise and worship for today was totally awesome the lighting everything was juz simply so nice and the smoke though its a little cramp maybe would be best if we build a new church juz at the empty field beside church so that we would have bigger space maybe bigger then the one at Marine Parade then we need not worry for the growing size of YI for its a thing that God has bless us for the breakthrough in number then like i said earlier svr had spoken alot to me and i will pray for God to help me let go of all my past...another thing i would be happy about for Sat is here is that not only could i go church and worship God , my grandma would come back today as she could not be discharge on tue then really had to thanks a lot of ppl for watever they did for the past 1 mth 22 days and the one i should thank most is GOD..
Appreciation message
Cheryl : Thanks for all the thing u and the cell grp had done for me be it taking care of me or even encouraging me n even pushing me on when i felt like giving up on life and even pull me out from the valley of despair when i am down n out
Brendan: Thanks for encouraging me on for the past mth and even remind me to have my quiet time with God and being a good small grp leader n discipler to me
Rachel: Thanks for encouraging me when i was down in life and about to give up on everything , u are really a great sister that God had put in my life
Rebekah: Thanks for giving me words of encouragement when i am down like during Radical Conference when u knew my grandma was in hospital and i m feeling down u console me and even taking care of me when i first came
Gabriel: Hey brother thanks for being ard in my life and even being a good disciple which i do not need to worry about and even praying for my grandma if u had which i believe u had
Alicia: For u eh....only can thank u for being a good example of a sister in christ and even keeping me and my grandma in prayer
Donric: You ar.....dunno wat to say come find me and i will think of wat to say
Karlos: Hey Thanks for keeping me in prayer and even being a consoler to me n even someone who bright up my day during the darkest day of my life
Caleb: Hey brother thanks for encouraging me when i am down n out and even praying for my grandma and i really cun thank u enough for all the things u had done
June: Really had to thank u for all the encouraging words u had said to me and even speak to me thru bible verse about God and also help me alot to come out of the valley of dispair and even pray for the gift of tongue for me during last svr the best shepherd i ever known
God: Father Lord i just thank you for all the miracle that had happen in my family and even the blessing u had poured down on me and even answering our prayer of salvation for those in Thailand and even open a way for those frontline warrior to enter the village....and God i juz apologize for all the misnderstanding i had for you and even blame you for all the bad events though its not from you like in the bible Romans 8:28 that i knew that u do things for the good of those who had faith and believe in you and in Jesus name i pray Amen

Today our svr was a special one and cell too....as Brendan had to leave early for his mission trip. Today heard a phrase which i think is good which is Jeremiah 29:11 "For I know the plans I have for you, declare the Lord, "plan to prosper you and not to harm you plans to give you hope and a future" heard this from sister Wanping during our prayer before svr. I think it is a good phrase of wat God gonna do so i remembered it down. Today songs were juz nice , God had it all planned out for today praise n worship like for the first song we sang had a verse like this "King of Glory , we dance before your throne" n every one was "dancing" / hopping ard in front of the altar where God is. Today svr was special cos everything seems speed up due to some had to leave at 6 for the airport for admin n other matters....but sometimes dunno if is it my brain lagging everytime or is Ps.Daniel speaking too fast somehow feel that sometime cannot catch some of the sermon notes...then before the closing of prayer , Ps.Daniel ask for those who wants to pray in tongue n those who wants to b even stronger in praying in tongue for altar call n i responded to those who wanted to have the gift of prophecy n then June prayed for me to have the gift of prophecy n really thank God for giving me the spiritual gift n even the Holy Spirit to reside in me n now i really hope that with the Holy Spirit residing in me i would really change even more so as to be a good testimony to ppl ard me....after June prayed for me Brendan came along n pray for me too n also ask me to continue praying in tongue now that i could n actually as i was praying in tongue i really felt like crying out twice but i do not know why but though i did not cry out , tears came out of my eyes n the tears rolled down from the corner of my eyes n something weird also happen...my legs were like shaking on the spot as if it had turn wobbly even though i was juz standing straight it was the first time to happen to me when i was juz standing on the spot...today many good things happen n i learned quite alot from today svr n best is to attain the spiritual gift of prophecy n pray in tongue really have to thank God for that n then before leaving got called by Cheryl to do sit in with Karlos as he do discipleship which was quite fun la cos Karlos demand proper english from Munchong and Munchong was like fooling ard n not even serious then i was like at there laughing as Karlos was whining at Munchong

Finally after two n the half day of Senior Specialist Course manage to pass out as Staff SGT n really have to thank God for that cos i prayed for everyone in my platoon to pass n we did , the best is that the whole course pass out as Staff SGT then today b4 going for our light refreshment as always it is for all courses , it was the dawning of Lanyard n we were standing there waiting for our CLTs to dawn for us n while it was dawning on is , my mind had alot of thinking of all the times we spent as a platoon/course n even when we are having our test....even i would think of all the hardship we went thru as a District when we were going for our Specialist course , now only selected 5 would go for it n i was one of the 900/annum of cadets who will go for the course n really had to thank God for that and even the responsibility we had on our shoulder to bring the sch name to a higher standard. Before we pass out , CLT Kenny told us a phrase which we all will agree n neva forget , we will even practice it.... He said having the rank of a Staff SGT is not a Right but a priviledge to have it n told us not to abuse it n even teach watever we learned to our cadets. The course was meaningful to me as i learned alot of new things n even make a few friends there .
The pic above is the Lanyard with the uniform i wore for the course

Today svr was soooo good man then praise n worship was like wo n i was like thinking is Youth Alive back for today svr??? Every1 was so high n enthu in praising God today sia all was like hopping ard or should i say jumping on the spot while praising God had Holy Communion today to remember how Jesus died for us on the cross when he was cruxified n died for us...had quite a few new comer today....from our small cell grp actually have ard 20 ppl invited but for Cheryl side i was not so sure but then one thing is for sure our cell grp grew today from occupying 2 rows of chair to 4 rows today its like double which makes it ard 12 newcomer....could feel God presence today n could feel that all angels were rejoicing in heaven. After svr we went to church office n have cell(???) is it call cell? Aiya dun care la anws had game n i got forfeit n got to do nail polish n after that i remember had Senior Specialist Course tomoro then was like wa lau later cannot wash off get B.O.C directly i will b like (T.T) but nvm try to scratch it off....After all the game was forfeit n June got to eat wasabe n after trying to tolerate it finally she gave way next was Cherly our dearest cell leader who got to ate pink ginger that could b found at the sushi shop n her face was like :/ eww....got a little red too....luckily for the forfeit i got was not wasabe for i do not like to eat it but the pink ginger was my favourite...hehe then after that we all split into grp of 2 or 3 to spread the word of God n i got Cadman , while spreading the word of God he was like distracted by all the things so i decided to stop n pray for him to concentrate n thank God for answering my prayer he listen to me after that......when it was Ask Yourself time he circle the first n third "yes"(answer) first n the middle one was "Do u accept Jesus into your life?" n he was like hestitating to answer that n i was like pls God pls let him have salvation Lord plz n i was like praying while he was thinking.....finally the time has come n he answered the question as his hand was blocking i was like God pls let it be a yes pls God n after he remove his hand i saw a yes n i was like WOOOOO HoOoOoO God answer our prayer of salvation then as still have time i talk to him about the Holy Communion n even the two different type of prayer which is to pray in a language where ppl understand n the other which in a language that no one understand except God....
This is to God if he could see(i noe its like a little siao la but...) :
Father Lord i thank u for all the newcomer coming to YI today n even for answering our prayer for salvation but God 5 is not enough we want more(i believe) , God ar God muz give us more next time ar , 5 is too little for a world population of bout billions of ppl which are not saved...n in Jesus name i ask AMEN!