Monday, April 28, 2008

Amazing God, Amazing ways

Like the tittle of this post "Amazing God, Amazing ways", God is so so amazing and His ways are always unique. Last sat sermon was preached by Sister Wanping but yet it was so much powerful. From the beginning of this year till now, God is using Sister Wanping so much more i can say, each time she preached God authority come forward with power and love. Tittle of sermon was "Abandon Ship" gotta admit that when i hear this tittle i was like, what has it got to do with church? What has ship got to do? I thought there was gonna be story about ship. But i was wrong, the main focus of this week sermon was "ABANDON" us having to abandon ourself, pain & suffering and opinion, like in this story Acts 9: 1-9

1Meanwhile, Saul was still breathing out murderous threats against the Lord's disciples. He went to the high priest 2and asked him for letters to the synagogues in Damascus, so that if he found any there who belonged to the Way, whether men or women, he might take them as prisoners to Jerusalem. 3As he neared Damascus on his journey, suddenly a light from heaven flashed around him. 4He fell to the ground and heard a voice say to him, "Saul, Saul, why do you persecute me?"

5"Who are you, Lord?" Saul asked.

"I am Jesus, whom you are persecuting," he replied. 6"Now get up and go into the city, and you will be told what you must do."

7The men traveling with Saul stood there speechless; they heard the sound but did not see anyone. 8Saul got up from the ground, but when he opened his eyes he could see nothing. So they led him by the hand into Damascus. 9For three days he was blind, and did not eat or drink anything.

what caught me was verse 5 "Who are you Lord?" saul asked, like the explanation of Sister Wanping through this verse spoke alot to me, let me ask you a question, do we ever ask "who are you Lord?" like saul? Do we ask "who are you Lord?" and gradually become sensitive to God? another thing so powerful was what Jesus said in Luke 22:41-44

41He withdrew about a stone's throw beyond them, knelt down and prayed, 42"Father, if you are willing, take this cup from me; yet not my will, but yours be done." 43An angel from heaven appeared to him and strengthened him. 44And being in anguish, he prayed more earnestly, and his sweat was like drops of blood falling to the ground.

Father if you are willing, take this cup from me; yet not my will, but yours be done. This is so powerful, a verse filled with God authority, let not my will but yours be done, Jesus was so obedient that He abandon His "Feel" and obey God even in death, seriously i think i cant even do it. I can give a thousand reason to God just to run away, but Jesus just said, let not my will but your will be done. There this part talking about Ananias whom is sensitive to God and people, he could see/hear/feel things beneath the surface, for me i am like a Ananias deep asleep, i did not knew it till altar call, i was the special one in my place, someone popping out from the rest. For Altar call, there were three parts, and i was just telling God, God which one to stand, deep within me i knew i had to stand for the second one which is abandon self, but yet i just like push it hide it whatever you call it, but still i stood up and it was one experience that i never felt before. We were standing up in response to the call and leader came forward to pray for us, of which my leader is Cheryl, she prayed bout anger, bitterness and hatred and much much more, while she was praying, my tears came down, and first i thought it was just like any other time, but NO! This time, i just couldn't control myself, i just kept on crying, see the word is crying not tearing, i just cried like a baby, ok don't go imagine how it look like, but i started to cry, i felt that tangible presence of God, so loving and so warmth, so comforting that i could not control myself anymore, and Sister Wanping told me what God want me to hear, would not say all but some like "I have a feeling God is saying this to you, you have lost your first love, find back the first love......stay on track do not fall off...." (... meant there were things between and after) and what she said made me cry even more, what she said really change my life, be truthful to you all, i wasn't good for the past week, got into a lot of staring incident with people like got one is someone from Jian Le class, the guy was with wayne whom did not saw me, but his friend was staring and i just stared back, there were more, but why raise it up again? Almost got into fight(Not staring incident), almost threw a chair at someone and was thinking aiya just be bad boy la, no need so troublesome, but after Sister Wanping say all those thing, that very power of God just came and abolish those thought of mine, the very power that could even raise the dead changed my very thought. Today there this thing with what Sister Wanping said about staying on track

27 Do not swerve to the right or the left;
keep your foot from evil.


it tally with what Sister Wanping told me. Seriously God works in many amazing ways, its just that we do not see it, open your eyes and see, you will see the amazing thing of God.

Monday, April 21, 2008

ARGH!!! only two days since sat, first day into the week and i am gonna burst!!! Muz CONTROL!!!! So much for the verse Psalm 37:8 if i burst.
Well this week sermon was good. Though its a short one, like for only 1 hr 15mins, dunno is it because of the new arrangement or because of the sermon is short from the start. But anyway, its a powerful sermon. With like only 11 different verses and like 2 points i learnt alot though. It also reveal to me where i am now in my stand, like there this question "How far are you willing to go to escape the lie of satan", it spark of remembrance of one almost similar question my friend asked me, "How much are you willing to go to protect the one you really loved?" and i answered him "my life, i am willing to die for the person i like." but then God ask me this, "Are you willing to die for me?" and i just could not answer. Just a simple question that spark me thinking and leading me to a answer of where i stand, i just do not know how to answer God.....Another thing is like during Altar Call when Cheryl was praying, she said something bout rising to fight(Not sure if i heard correctly)? But think is something like it, then after she pray finish, i start talking to God, suddenly all my fear comes in, i fear i fail God, i fail those who hope in me, i just kept telling God that i start to tear, all my fears i told him and he spoke to me through the worship song what else can i do...

our love for me is a healing comfort for me
Your grace to me is a matchless gift to me
Your power in me is a mighty river in me

At the end of the day with the setting of the sun
After all is said and done

What else can I do but worship
What else can I do but bow
'Cause all I really long for is You
And all I really yearn for is You

Your sovereignty is a sure foundation for me
Your care for me is enduring peace in me
Your hope in me brings a sweet surrender to me

Tuesday, April 15, 2008

Anyone want lucky numbers? I have been seeing red every morning, so confirm lucky one. Go buy 4D or toto also can? Dun even know what the hell happening in my body la, every morning wake up i see blood, not any normal blood from wound you know, from my mouth whenever i spit saliva or phlegm the morning, i see blood see the colour its, fresh red.....lucky right? Problem is, its not from my gum. Every morning 见红. confirm lucky, lucky number anyone?

ITE= Is The End
Its To Enjoy
Its To Erchieve

Now for me i am at the Its to enjoy stage and Its To Erchieve stage, slowly i will go all the way to Its To Erchieve. Seriously think ITE has an affinity with Dunearn lei. This is what my friend Vicknesh said, Eh seriously ar, i think those from Dunearn ar, cannot escape the fate of ITE one lei, reason coz in Dunearn, students are called DunearnITES, see the last 4 alphabets? ITES, ITE represent of course ITE, the S means many will be in the ITE college.

Saturday, April 12, 2008

Close your eyes
take a deep breathe
when you are ready, call me and i will fight for you

Monday, April 07, 2008

Rise to fight

Perhaps now i understand why i be facing problems 2 weeks back, mayb it was God way of getting my attention. Many a times when i just like couldn't be bother bout my walk already, God will allow problems to come into my life or should i say I MYSELF allow my guards down for problems to come into my life, but it always get my attention back to God, get my eyes fix on Him again. Like for past week and now, been very sharp to God, my body is now tune to Him. Now even as i am strong in God, there are others weak in God. Many things are happening in people life now, especially in those of NissiCheryl of which i knew, and i believe those who are strong in God now must rise to fight against the devil now, its really time to put up the full armor with the weapon in your hand now, time to pray and fight back.......dunno bout you guys who are reading this, but i decide to rise and fight back the devil now, rise to protect the weak by fighting satan, how bout you?

Tell you all what, i am thinking of having a fasting and praying "exercise" to fight satan, i am gonna fast for tues lunch and another 2 days, how bout you? Its your choice.....

If my people, who are called by my name, will humble themselves
and pray and seek my face and turn from their wicked ways, then
will I hear from heaven and forgive their sin and will heal their
land

-2 CHRONICLES 7:14-