Amazing God, Amazing ways
5"Who are you, Lord?" Saul asked.
"I am Jesus, whom you are persecuting," he replied. 6"Now get up and go into the city, and you will be told what you must do."
41He withdrew about a stone's throw beyond them, knelt down and prayed, 42"Father, if you are willing, take this cup from me; yet not my will, but yours be done." 43An angel from heaven appeared to him and strengthened him. 44And being in anguish, he prayed more earnestly, and his sweat was like drops of blood falling to the ground.
Father if you are willing, take this cup from me; yet not my will, but yours be done. This is so powerful, a verse filled with God authority, let not my will but yours be done, Jesus was so obedient that He abandon His "Feel" and obey God even in death, seriously i think i cant even do it. I can give a thousand reason to God just to run away, but Jesus just said, let not my will but your will be done. There this part talking about Ananias whom is sensitive to God and people, he could see/hear/feel things beneath the surface, for me i am like a Ananias deep asleep, i did not knew it till altar call, i was the special one in my place, someone popping out from the rest. For Altar call, there were three parts, and i was just telling God, God which one to stand, deep within me i knew i had to stand for the second one which is abandon self, but yet i just like push it hide it whatever you call it, but still i stood up and it was one experience that i never felt before. We were standing up in response to the call and leader came forward to pray for us, of which my leader is Cheryl, she prayed bout anger, bitterness and hatred and much much more, while she was praying, my tears came down, and first i thought it was just like any other time, but NO! This time, i just couldn't control myself, i just kept on crying, see the word is crying not tearing, i just cried like a baby, ok don't go imagine how it look like, but i started to cry, i felt that tangible presence of God, so loving and so warmth, so comforting that i could not control myself anymore, and Sister Wanping told me what God want me to hear, would not say all but some like "I have a feeling God is saying this to you, you have lost your first love, find back the first love......stay on track do not fall off...." (... meant there were things between and after) and what she said made me cry even more, what she said really change my life, be truthful to you all, i wasn't good for the past week, got into a lot of staring incident with people like got one is someone from Jian Le class, the guy was with wayne whom did not saw me, but his friend was staring and i just stared back, there were more, but why raise it up again? Almost got into fight(Not staring incident), almost threw a chair at someone and was thinking aiya just be bad boy la, no need so troublesome, but after Sister Wanping say all those thing, that very power of God just came and abolish those thought of mine, the very power that could even raise the dead changed my very thought. Today there this thing with what Sister Wanping said about staying on track
27 Do not swerve to the right or the left;
keep your foot from evil.
it tally with what Sister Wanping told me. Seriously God works in many amazing ways, its just that we do not see it, open your eyes and see, you will see the amazing thing of God.