Went to the ice-skating ring ytd at JE with friends to sit down and relax at night, the night "View" is very nice, compare to last Fri cell group outing the atmosphere is better at night. They off all the light and start running those mini "spotlight" and the whole ring is very nice. plus those techno and trance music, its add to the best. Actually had some photo but accidentally deleted it. well guess some things are meant only for the eyes. If have a chance will try get the pics again. Anws was reading Karen blog when i saw this sentence in the most recent post "He desperately tries to get our attention while supporting us silently all these while.." This really spoke to me, God is always supporting us silently, recently been facing a lot of problem, and this is only the time where i really want to get close to God, when i really need Him in my life. Sometimes things are getting very hard for me to get by, so hard that i could hardly breathe, but this sentence really spoke to me....

Guys do break down and cry


So many things on my mind now, feel like crumbling down. Just felt lost this morning while preparing to go, then dun feel like going. decided to quit course already.....

All that i felt for the past week....

maybe there no other in this world we could trust other than yourself, perhaps i should not takt that step out to trust other from the start. Just do not know who to trust anymore

You raise me up, this song was played during the last day of funeral for my grand-uncle. Stumble across it in my com while "clearing" some junks file like unwanted song or movie to create space for my com. Remember the day where i learn what treasure is, that very day where i learn treasure again, seen the fragile of life, the love my aunt and uncle had for him, my granduncle had one daughter and one son, remember the very day where that we gave our very last respect before closing the coffin, everyone was crying, and i gave my last respect telling my uncle not to take it too hard, but who can we blame? overnight his health deteriorate and passed away in the wee hour of morning. Although i know he had some cancer, but when i hear the news i was also thrown off, coz in my heart he is a strong guy, a cheerful guy....i know death comes to everyone, but why through pain for him? Even now as i just listen to "You raise me up" i can still remember every detail of what happen that day, every tear, every heart-wrenching moment, every person heart at that moment, every action, well now the song is "Till i see you", somehow got a feeling God speak to me through it, He is telling me, my grand-uncle is with Him, like this verse "the greatest love that anyone could ever know, it overcame the cross and grave to find my soul", God says my granduncle is with Him now....now every now and then i can only keep my promise to look after my grand-aunt, my whole family now look to her as our mother(for my parents) and our grandmother(us), i can only keep what i decide to hold when i was standing beside the coffin that is my promise to my late grand-uncle to look after my grand-aunt to the best i could, but sometime i fear i could not keep up to the promise, but u know somehow this song "Till i see you" assure my heart.

Hmmmm....having some joker idea in my mind currently, got this feeling like join those temple thing just to know more about the other "God", though grew up in environment where house got those idol statues like Ne-Zha, Guan Yin and stuff, Yearly would go to my father temple group there play around in the tent but just want to know more bout different "God". How? just got this burning thing to know more bout other "God", but know it is sort of a joker idea but still feel like doing it just for the sake of fun?

decision decision decision

A prestigious rank for all NCC cadet to get, i am selected to go for this course which most likely is from 24 March to 12 April, which meant i would most likely miss three whole week of church, how how how? One side i do not want to miss church that much, another side this is hard to get in, much more it only come twice a year and did not go last year due to Mission Trip. So how? Go or not to go???