Breaking off totally

Is this even really happening, i do not know now. Lots of things change within me, i am no longer the Marcus i used to be. After this Sat, i will break away to be alone, alone to sort out whatever is not right now, i am struggling, but still holding on, if after a month things remains, perhaps i will never return again. If there is even a slightest change, this is my words to you, I will be back.
This is for me to fight, my war, a fight where there is no help, cause this war is within my heart and mind, if i can't overcome it myself, no one can even help me. You want to help, just pray for me......

Each moment i try to hang on there, 我感到越来越痛苦. I am out, just let me be alone for some time, how long i do not know, no one knows.....don't try to find me. Don't call out to me even if u see me, let me break away totally for this period of time. But remember my promise, if there is even a slightest change, i will be back