ROBOT

Everyone felt like a stranger to me now, everything seems like new to me, i feel as if i had lost my memory, remembering some close one, and the rest seems like a stranger. My mind is like changing to a processor chip, from man to programs

I am like a robot, 6.30am wake up, 7 leave house, 6.30pm reach home, rest, dinner, TV and sleep, the whole process repeats again for 5 days. Sat, wake up 11+, go church, go cell, dinner, tv, sleep. Sun wake up, go out, go grandma hse for dinner and back to the 5 days routine. Its really scary when u see your lives revolving around this way. No God, barren spiritual ground, dull spiritual life. I am trying to hang on there for as long, but is my reason for hanging on right? Hanging not for God, but hanging on for man, so as not to disappoint some.......