Nothing seems to change

Today is the 8th day of my grandfather death/supposedly 9 days of the funeral if we did 9 days, many things did not change much in the family, it always felt that it never happen, i still would look over to the pavilion where my grandfather would sit with his friends to talk, look into the stairways where my grandfather always sit to smoke, look at the sofa seat he always sat, things din seem to change much..... well its the past, let the wind take away the sadness, but lets keep the goodness within us. Like what sister Karen said, at least you had some happy memories with your grandfather.

Well today i was listening to the "New Life Worship Counting on God (Ross Parsley and The Desperation Band)" music CD while playing dota when i hear this

.....Though sorrow's my condition
And pain holds back no blow
Though this be my darkest hour
Your lamp is leading me home
Eyes can't see but i feel you near*
I know You're working through my tears
I trust you lord....

*Eyes can't see but i feel you near <----- This is bout God not my grandfather
in normal time while playing games and listening music, i am not the sort whom will listen to the lyrics, but its just so sudden that i caught this lyrics and it spoke of my condition, but it is still amazing, today did not attend church again coz my body cant take it and just "Job strike", did not have the strength to get out of bed, and still was in God presence so strongly but surprisingly i had the strength to last the whole 7 days of funeral, well this Glory goes to GOD for it, coz without God i dont think my body can take the 7 days of "beating".

Anws thanks these people for coming to my grandfather wake (name is by first letter alphabet)
Cheryl
Brother Calvin
Donric
Jian Le
Jie Xin
Kenneth
Kenny
Lu Wei
Sister Karen
Wayne

Glory be to God!

Maybe i will consider doing what Brother Calvin and Sister Karen said.......