Qn to Team Saam + How cool is service this week?
Team Saam MT'06 Sister Karen was asking if want to meet up for lunch before service start one of this Saturday to catch up with each other, tag me, msg me let me know then i will inform her, dont bo chup lei
service was cool this week, Pastor Daniel showing us pictures of baby that were aborted, hows that? Cool right! If u are wondering what feeling did i have at the moment, my answer is nothing though, dont know why but i felt nothing, perhaps because i see the process of abortion before ba, not from silent scream but is the "china" version, saw it while my grandmother was watching the video, dont ask me why i also dunno.....many a time such things no longer make me feel anything, its not that i dont have compassion but its that perhaps i am numb to some things already....but this week sermon perhaps fall into place ba, like from last week during cell Cheryl ask me to pray for myself first before she pray for me, remember the time when i was praying was this sentence that came out of my mouth "Father i pray u give me love, let love cover me, let love heal all things..." and this week i fail though, Saturday i ask God to let love cover me, and Wednesday there i am hunting one person down to cut his finger, there i am finding one person to settle some feud....sometimes things just seem weird, i tell God to let love cover me, the next moment someone did something to me and my friend which lets say perhaps what i wont pass easily, staring and stuff i am cold bout it, i dont bother, but the other action that he did was what i went after and this Saturday it was bout murder not just in action but even thought...hows that huh, some things its just ironic, altar call was also forgiving the person, i sat there for a long time fighting the war within my mind, even when everybody is standing up already, i am still sitting down and think.... Sometimes things are just so nice in place, everything happen before hand and Saturday it comes and wo-la it just gets you to settle down and do things some are unwilling in the first place....
Lyrics of Rain Down
I am falling to my knees
I need You Lord to breathe in me
My prayer is still the same
My heart is calling out Your name
Sweet anointing fill this place
I am found in Your embrace
Rain down on me
Rain down on me
Here in Your presence I am free
Pour down like rain
Come and touch me again
Lord let Your presence fall on me
I'm longing just to see
Your power and Your majesty
Sweet anointing fill this place
I am found in Your embrace
Sweet anointing
Wash me over
Sweet anointing
Wash me over
the first verse spoke to me the very moment Brother(married liao must call brother) Calvin lead the congregation in rain down, i really need God to breath in me once again, ever since the moment i told Cheryl and June that i am not myself, not in my right mind, though things change better over weeks, but some things lets say need God to do it now, what i need perhaps is God presence to rain down once again, like next its says my prayer is still the same, my prayer has never change, take anger for example, things goes up and down, there are time i curb it, there are times it loses control and now is one of the moment i loses control, never expected that within the small heart of mine, so many things are hidden beneath, some things only surface up when we listen to it and ask ourself right? Din even knew all this are within me till when Brother Calvin sang the song and i hear with my heart....Let God rain down on me this time round, i need u now before i return to the past, i am so scared that somethings will never be the same again, i am so scared that i will return to my past, like when Rebekah prayed for me last week that i will not go back my past, somethings has been hunting me again, i need God to rain down on me now and fast.......
realize i had never been saying yes or amen to every prayer, i will say "I will try" perhaps this gave me a chance to numb myself, i cant promise that i be the best warrior in your eyes to fight every battle, but i will try my best and mayb theres a room for me to hide
service was cool this week, Pastor Daniel showing us pictures of baby that were aborted, hows that? Cool right! If u are wondering what feeling did i have at the moment, my answer is nothing though, dont know why but i felt nothing, perhaps because i see the process of abortion before ba, not from silent scream but is the "china" version, saw it while my grandmother was watching the video, dont ask me why i also dunno.....many a time such things no longer make me feel anything, its not that i dont have compassion but its that perhaps i am numb to some things already....but this week sermon perhaps fall into place ba, like from last week during cell Cheryl ask me to pray for myself first before she pray for me, remember the time when i was praying was this sentence that came out of my mouth "Father i pray u give me love, let love cover me, let love heal all things..." and this week i fail though, Saturday i ask God to let love cover me, and Wednesday there i am hunting one person down to cut his finger, there i am finding one person to settle some feud....sometimes things just seem weird, i tell God to let love cover me, the next moment someone did something to me and my friend which lets say perhaps what i wont pass easily, staring and stuff i am cold bout it, i dont bother, but the other action that he did was what i went after and this Saturday it was bout murder not just in action but even thought...hows that huh, some things its just ironic, altar call was also forgiving the person, i sat there for a long time fighting the war within my mind, even when everybody is standing up already, i am still sitting down and think.... Sometimes things are just so nice in place, everything happen before hand and Saturday it comes and wo-la it just gets you to settle down and do things some are unwilling in the first place....
Lyrics of Rain Down
I am falling to my knees
I need You Lord to breathe in me
My prayer is still the same
My heart is calling out Your name
Sweet anointing fill this place
I am found in Your embrace
Rain down on me
Rain down on me
Here in Your presence I am free
Pour down like rain
Come and touch me again
Lord let Your presence fall on me
I'm longing just to see
Your power and Your majesty
Sweet anointing fill this place
I am found in Your embrace
Sweet anointing
Wash me over
Sweet anointing
Wash me over
the first verse spoke to me the very moment Brother(married liao must call brother) Calvin lead the congregation in rain down, i really need God to breath in me once again, ever since the moment i told Cheryl and June that i am not myself, not in my right mind, though things change better over weeks, but some things lets say need God to do it now, what i need perhaps is God presence to rain down once again, like next its says my prayer is still the same, my prayer has never change, take anger for example, things goes up and down, there are time i curb it, there are times it loses control and now is one of the moment i loses control, never expected that within the small heart of mine, so many things are hidden beneath, some things only surface up when we listen to it and ask ourself right? Din even knew all this are within me till when Brother Calvin sang the song and i hear with my heart....Let God rain down on me this time round, i need u now before i return to the past, i am so scared that somethings will never be the same again, i am so scared that i will return to my past, like when Rebekah prayed for me last week that i will not go back my past, somethings has been hunting me again, i need God to rain down on me now and fast.......
realize i had never been saying yes or amen to every prayer, i will say "I will try" perhaps this gave me a chance to numb myself, i cant promise that i be the best warrior in your eyes to fight every battle, but i will try my best and mayb theres a room for me to hide
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