Last week + This week + My decision

Finally Os is OVER!!! I repeat juz in case you dun get it, Os is OVER!!! FREEDOM from school, now time to prepare myself for MT and stuff already...

Last Week
Last Sat the whole church watched "Facing The Giants", a very nice show to watch, watched it the second time but still never fail to learnt and God never fails to speak to me in many ways, amazing isn't it? Remember this part about Revelation 3, its from verse 17 which says "To the angel of the church in Philadelphia write: These are the words of Him who is holy and true, who holds the key of David. What He opens no one can shut, and what He shuts no one can open", from it perhaps God maybe and i say maybe telling me to response, heard from a friend bout this " In everything, there is a time limit, cross it and the opportunity is closed", maybe not many knew bout the calling i had, but i will blog it here, ever since last year Radical Conference, God had been calling me to serve him, but i ran away thinking maybe i was hearing something wrongly, then God gave me a dream bout doing something great, a big event in the field, sound of praise and worship were surrounding the place, gospel were preach and many were around the area, passer-by, christians, gentiles and i see many coming to God then i woke up from my sleep, been like for half a year since i have that dream, but still never forget that dream till now, the third time God called was during the week before when Pastor Toby( is it right?) held the altar call, God told me to raise my hands, i raised it up, but when we were called to step forward, i did not....and gradually i disappear into the congregation, it was when Pastor Daniel say bout the guy with tattoo, then God convicted me of why did i not step forward, and QT for that day also foretold i would run away again.... This are the three times God called me, but i ran thus perhaps Revelation 3:17 which was said in the show has a huge impact on me....another part is the "death crawl", this is no joke, the death crawl requires lots of energy and perseverance, through it is like if we restrict ourself, how can God MAXIMIZE us, see the word is MAXIMIZE, without our full potential given out due to our lack of perseverance, we are also restricting God power to work through us.....We, have influence in many people lives, be it the good guy or bad guy, we all have influence on them, actually there is no such crap as good guy or bad guy since God says in the bible "Love the man but hate his sin", with influence in many people lives, we muz use it! Our influence must be used to the greatest, for some people, many treat them as someone with authority, like for me being a Staff seagent in sch, i have influence in the unit, to those in NCC, God blessed me with so much influence on me that although i may not be the top two post, but the influence i hold is much more higher than them, but i never used it to the fullest and bring them to church, i did not used the influence to help spread the gospel, the influence to bring some of them back to the right path, i wasted God's blessing of influence....Remember there are 365 ways in the bible saying "do not fear", don't you see a link? 365 days a year, 365 ways saying do not fear, if we used one way of God saying do not fear, its enough to last us, so lets not fear brother and sister for we have GOD!

This Week
This week, sermon was talking bout "Faith that works", and God convicted me of what a "Real" christian i am at many times, see the double inverted sign and its not real, but "real"

East to West (by Casting Crowns)

Here I am, Lord, and I'm drowning in your sea of forgetfulness
The chains of yesterday surround me
I yearn for peace and rest
I don't want to end up where You found me
And it echoes in my mind, keeps me awake tonight
I know You've cast my sin as far as the east is from the west
And I stand before You now as though I've never sinned
But today I feel like I'm just one mistake away
From You leaving me this way

Jesus, can You show me just how far the east is from the west
'cause I can't bear to see the man I've been
Come rising up in me again
In the arms of Your mercy I find rest
'cause You know just how far the east is from the west
From one scarred hand to the other

I start the day, the war begins, endless reminding of my sin
Time and time again Your truth is drowned out by the storm I'm in
Today I feel like I'm just one mistake away
From You leaving me this way

I know You've washed me white, turned my darkness into light
I need Your peace to get me through, to get me through this night
I can't live by what I feel, but by the truth Your word reveals
I'm not holding on to You, but You're holding on to me
You're holding on to me

Jesus, You know just how far the east is from the west
I don't have to see the man I've been
Come rising up in me again
In the arms of Your mercy I find rest
'cause You know just how far the east is from the west
From one scarred hand to the other

This song, the lyrics speak a lot to me, especially the highlighted one.....remember bout Pastor Daniel said bout angels in church, devil outside? I am one of those in many times, like 7 out of 10? Remember what i always fall into? Fall into outside talk with others? Though it never really happen now, but there are still time the 天使魔鬼 thing still exist, but i have to change.....I have faith, but i need action for faith without deed is dead...Cell group was really a blessing to me, all emptied their mission piggy bank juz to help me go for mission trip, gave up the mission funds to help me go missions, gave funds to help me to....dunno what to say, as u all know i have never been good at words, never been good at talking except for settling things....
ANWS THANX FOR YOUR BLESSING BOTH GOD AND CELL GROUP!!
Do not know why God wanted to bless me so much till when i do QT for Sat which was Joshua 11 then God told me....
After coming back for Mission trip would be helping my mother company work at expo for 4 days and after that gonna do something crazy to the world but not me, something so crazy that all my friends would think i am crazy...heres something for you all who are hesitating to give God your all: Though much to sacrifice, but with faith, there is much more to gain than sacrifice, its always easy to say, but action are hard, trust in God with faith and deeds, I use my name to guarantee it, if not i would not be call Marcus
Due to me going for mission trip, cannot go work coz juz start work needa find 9 days off, so decided to place my trust in God that when i come back from mission trip, He will bless me and those going mission trip with a good holiday job with great pay!

My decision
Decided not to dye my hair till i come back from Mission trip, and after my poly and NS, gonna set aside my life to serve God for as long as he prompt me to, be it 1 yr or 10 yr i am gonna go join Him...mayb will join Campus Target if God prompts me