Last sat was a really hard day for me to get by, in the morning felt so empty in me, just could not feel God, just felt all alone, the feeling of loneliness just overwhelm, and more towards noon a lot of things went through my mind, so much that i do not know what all really is, and felt frustrated....it was so bad to the extend that the devil took the chance to bring me down, i almost did not go church, the whole journey to church was a struggle to me, felt like no one knows how i felt, no one knows the hurt, the stress, no one knows how tired i am.....but still went to church, and when during pre-service prayer, when Munchong ask to pray for me, i told him whats going through my head and he prayed for me, though things got a little better, but it was still unbearable, so much that i almost cry when was interceding for service, when Praise and Worship started, for praise song my mind was not there, though i jump jump jump, but the heart was not there, then came worship songs and it was where God really spoke to me, from all the songs sang, the theme for the week would most likely be "FREEDOM", then I was touch by God and tears came rolling down, especially in the song tittled "In Your Freedom" [continue after lyrics]

In Your Freedom

Verse:
I search for You God of strength
I bow to You In my brokenness
And no other king could have so humbly come
To save my soul and heal my heart

PreChorus:
I have nothing more
Than all You offer me
There is nothing else
That's of worth to me

Chorus:
And i love You Lord You rescued me
You are all that i want You're all i need

Other:

Bridge 1:
I pray to You God of peace
I rest in You My cares released

Bridge 2:
(2x)
In Your freedom I will live, In Your freedom i will live
I offer devotion, I offer devotion

when we sang to bridge 1, it really touched me, what God said through Calvin really touch me and i teared even more, this is what God spoke through Calvin before we sang Bridge 1 "Rest in God and released all your cares" this touch me so much....and Bridge 2 came, "In your freedom I will live, In your freedom I will live" God spoke to me through it is that "My son, you have freedom in your life, you need not hide anything from me, you need not put on your mask, just remove it, for i know how you feel, I am always there for you" then in the freedom of God, i need not hide what i felt, i need not hold back my tears, that was why every time while worshiping God, i never hold back my tears, i never hide whats in me from God, you all may see i laugh with you all or i come without expression on my face, all seems calm and well, but whats in me no one knows it other than God, no one knows my heart........


So many problems, yet so little time, so stress out, yet so mentally tired, so troubled, yet no one knows other than God
How to tackle the problem, go either side and somebody get hurts, how!!!!!