Ok like i promise, i am back FINALLY!!! Come on clap, clap lei.......lol
Church was BOOM, being MIA for svr for two whole week, went back finally and God spoke to me greatly through Sister Wanping, been going through a very dry period for the past few week, i am falling away, felt that i am falling away very strongly, no longer feel anything, maybe i am numb now or even the passion is not there anymore......juz dunno why but feel that maybe God is losing its significant in me for the past week till Sat or should i say Sun when i hear the song "Devoted" it juz relighted that flame, that very flame that is dieing off.....sermon was about worry, who doesn't have worry? Everybody does.....though some may not say it out, but God knows it, like for me, i have worries, but yet i always choose to keep it quiet, u all may say why i do not say it out....the only reason is that perhaps some things i want to stay quiet of it.....if i could get it past, i will if i cannot, all i do is juz wallow in something and keep me busy enough to forget it, u all may say that its deceiving myself, but thats me, once i do things and keep me busy, i will forget it, even if it takes mths, i will still do it.......maybe its time to get it all off already ba, now as i am blogging, there is a feeling of some things like frustration wanting to break out, who noes once it break out, i will feel better, or what will happen if it breaks out? A lot of things are running through my mind now, sometime wonder if its worth fighting for the things you desire only to lose it at then end.......fight with all you had only to find that you will lose it or maybe a little percentage of gaining it, is it worth?
Got the Mission Trip application form already, i already filled in everything in it, but do not know if that form would be of use, having some parental objection again this year, this time by my father for he worry of what happen in Korea will happen in Thailand also, another thing is that my mother say that its not possible for me to let you go Mission trip yearly due to family income.....maybe its money problem that my mother disallow ba.....[ :( ] haiz......
Church was BOOM, being MIA for svr for two whole week, went back finally and God spoke to me greatly through Sister Wanping, been going through a very dry period for the past few week, i am falling away, felt that i am falling away very strongly, no longer feel anything, maybe i am numb now or even the passion is not there anymore......juz dunno why but feel that maybe God is losing its significant in me for the past week till Sat or should i say Sun when i hear the song "Devoted" it juz relighted that flame, that very flame that is dieing off.....sermon was about worry, who doesn't have worry? Everybody does.....though some may not say it out, but God knows it, like for me, i have worries, but yet i always choose to keep it quiet, u all may say why i do not say it out....the only reason is that perhaps some things i want to stay quiet of it.....if i could get it past, i will if i cannot, all i do is juz wallow in something and keep me busy enough to forget it, u all may say that its deceiving myself, but thats me, once i do things and keep me busy, i will forget it, even if it takes mths, i will still do it.......maybe its time to get it all off already ba, now as i am blogging, there is a feeling of some things like frustration wanting to break out, who noes once it break out, i will feel better, or what will happen if it breaks out? A lot of things are running through my mind now, sometime wonder if its worth fighting for the things you desire only to lose it at then end.......fight with all you had only to find that you will lose it or maybe a little percentage of gaining it, is it worth?
Got the Mission Trip application form already, i already filled in everything in it, but do not know if that form would be of use, having some parental objection again this year, this time by my father for he worry of what happen in Korea will happen in Thailand also, another thing is that my mother say that its not possible for me to let you go Mission trip yearly due to family income.....maybe its money problem that my mother disallow ba.....[ :( ] haiz......
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